You know, o wanted to wear nappies at the age of five. Then I got pushed in front of a car. When I came to I was in a different country and in nappies. I was taken out and abused so bad that I lost consciousness, I was drawn, hung in closets even walked on. I was not hurt in nappies. I had a bad childhood before but because of the accident I forgot. When I was put in care at the age of seven, I had to hide the occasional nappy. I was told of so many times. I'm 30 now and I want to breastfeed because I want to feel loved. It has been hard for me and I wanted to commit suicide because of my past and the situation where I live. But life seems to be going ok at the moment iv got two part time jobs. I'm earning money. Now I just need a girlfriend to mess it up again!