I've always been a baby.
4-5 years old I found an old plastic pants I wore as a baby and knew immediately that it i wanted to wear again. Plastic pants and diapers have, since then, followed me throughout my life. I've tried to grow up like other people but the baby in me has always tried to stop me. A constant battle between the grown man and the little guy I've always had inside me. Feelings of shame for my desires and not even being able to stop wishing I want diapers and plastic pants have followed me through my life.
10 years ago I made the decision no longer to fight against it. I've accepted the little guy in me and now I only grows downhill in age. Maybe totally crazy but it feels so right to me. I dont want to show the world that I am a baby. I only want to live that way.