Zachary840

Hello friends. I’m not really sure how to go about this or what exactly to say so bear with me please. I’ve never done this or anything like it so forgive me please if I’m saying too much. I am a AB who is almost 36 years old and as up until 2 years ago has kept that part a secret of myself to any and everybody. Mainly because of fear. As of today only 4 people (2 of who are no longer in my life) know about this side of me. 1 of them is my ex-fiancé who found out this side of me by accident. She was supportive of it in the beginning. We were together for 2 1/2 years and was supposed to get married. She seemed to really be into it. In fact at times it felt like she was more into it than I was lol. I was never the one to ask her to do it. She, at times, was the one to bring it up and ask me to do it. At the end, she said that was one of the reasons why she was leaving because it was too much and she couldn’t get past it. I personally think it was just for her to have an out. I do not blame her though. Another person that knows is my current ex girlfriend. I got scared with what happened in my previous relationship with my ex fiancé and didn’t wanna repeat that, so when I got with my last girlfriend about two weeks and into our relationship, I came out and shared everything with her. She was super supportive. I am glad that I told her. I mainly told her because I really believed we were going to be with each other for a long time and I didn’t want it to be a surprise if she found out. we broke up a couple months ago. Nothing due to this though. The third person to know is my sponsor (if you don’t understand what that is I will be happy to explain) and he is the only male in my life that knows. He is a gay man and kept that a secret in his life also for years. So he understands where I’m coming from with keeping secrets. He is also been very supportive the fourth and last person that knows who knows me personally, is my therapist. she also suggest that I look into chat room such as this and meet new people and to talk about it. I’m sorry for the novel lol I really wasn’t sure what to say or how to go about this.